i really felt that i am a extremely EXTREMELY useless daughter n friend!!! when there is a problem or trouble in front of me, all i know is just 2 escape and hide myself although i know i should face them bravely... yet i will still run away!

when there is people crying in front of me... my first instinct is to run away... don wanna see or listen to them... i really wanted to help or at least listen to them, but somehow my heart feels very pain...really very pain! i duno is this an illness or wad...

people around me n close to me are all facing 'relationships' problems! i am not very experienced with such things n i dunno how 2 console them... i really dunno.... u guys really make me felt that 'love' is nothing but juz pain! i am really disappointed with myself...my life... n everything!!!

Mayz... LY... YM...MS...i really miss u all a lot! at least when i'm with u all...i felt very comfortable!!!